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February 23, 2016 - No Comments!

Cat Man

illustration by Geoff Gouveia

illustration by Geoff Gouveia

“Where’s the milk pitcher?”

“The what?”

“The milk pitcher, Fritz. Where is it?”

“Right in front of your face, right there on the counter. I swear- sometimes the night shift gets to you George.”

“The evening shift here is the worst,” George said while scrubbing the metallic counter. “The worst. I can’t do anything after this. Time for bed as soon as I’m done here.” He looked over at his coworker, a scrawny girl with dark brown hair pulled tight into a barista pony-tail away from the coffee.

The girl, whom George called Fritz though her last name was Fitzgerald, played with a pen near the cash register. George purged the steam wand on his hand, letting it too close to the skin and winced when the steam lava licked his fingers. He unhinged his wrist to let it flap the pain away. Fritz nodded with a small smile. “Did it get you?” She asked with downcast eyes while drawing a circle with the pen. “Always gets me.” The pen dribbled from her fingertips and a sigh rolled with equal carelessness out her mouth. “I’m taking my break. I’ll be in the back if you need me.”

George wiped the milk from the steam wand before emptying the metal catch tray on the espresso machine. In between the metallic tinks of loose pieces jumbling next to each other, footsteps clopped from near the door. George greeted the customer with a slow nod above the espresso machine.

The man walking towards him bounced from heavy right step to lighter left, back and forth in a singsong limp. His dark gray jacket mourned the blue it used to be, soggy at the sleeves and wilted at the edges. The jacket sleeve covered the left hand while his right wrist lay naked at the tilt in weight. The man favored his left side, the side with the bag.

Dark navy, the bag had scuffs of wear that faded against the denim. Brown handles popped against the darkness. The man walked from the threshold of the door towards the counter before stopping in abrupt rock, rearing his back straight to place the duffel bag on top of a table. When the duffel bag stood crumpled at the top but rigid against the flat bottom surface. He looked at George, wiping the steam wand again, before coming near to order.

Tufts of grizzled orange hair escaped with wild intent out of the sides of his head. A fiery balding van Gogh, the man’s beard climbed his face like an ancient infantry scaling a castle wall. Burning them back down the ladder, the hot oily face held no distinguishable features other than the suspiciously thin red mustache he held hostage on his upper lip.

He crept with hand in pocket to communicate via jingle his net worth. The man tilted his head to the side, the wild tiger tufts of hair following him as he turned. “Espresso, pur-lease.”  The words danced dainty steps around his teeth to reach George, its volume on the edge of a whisper. After ordering he swiveled towards the bag, eyeing the table it sat on while placing the change on the counter. Abandoned the duffel looked still but when George gazed upon it, he swore the left side of the bag rose as if in mid breath. George shook the sight off with a question.

“Your name, sir?” The coins tallied to a few cents under the amount for the drink he ordered but the man was half way back to his table.

“Er, Er…Nigel.” The man called out with his back to the register.

George sent a demitasse cup sliding across the metallic bar towards the espresso machine. The scraping of ceramic on the metal released a chemical reaction in his brain, his hands moving to an internal rhythm drummed into him by the year behind the bar.

Soft steps carried the espresso to the table and when George neared it, the bag pulsed. Right next to the table George noticed the duffel bag had a black mesh lined top. He turned to start a trash run when he felt a small claw hook his shoulder. Nigel was standing to tap it.

From this proximity Nigel smelled of warm mashed tuna, the breath the main culprit. “Er, do you have milk?” It leapt from the deep sea before lapping at George’s nostril. “Milk?” Nigel spoke again but George forgot to reel it, subjecting him to another round of fermented injustice. “Could I, er, trouble you for a small glass of milk?” The longer sentence overpowered George, half closing his eyes as shields from the fresh scales sliding off Nigel’s tongue. George matched the seafood smell with a crustaceous retreat to the refrigerator.

The milk poured delicate velvet, the high sheen cream folding neat into the cup. George carried the ceramic with precision to his customer, careful to avoid the classic barista mistake of over rushing the viscous liquid onto the floor. Nigel stirred his espresso like a café colored mouse trapped under his paw. With a nod and simultaneous wink he sent George back to his original task of taking out the trash.

A metallic scuffle preceded the crunching of plastic cups in the folding of a black trash bag. The sounds repeated in pursuit of George, one by one the bags piled up near each other. Near the door George stole a glance at the sole customer in the shop. Nigel’s nose drifted closer and closer towards the mesh, the very tip of it almost entering. Small thin lips held back a round tongue, the outermost piece of it dangling outside the mouth cage it called home. It protruded its pink half moon self for a moment before darting back inside with a straightening of his neck. George shook his head and let the bell chime from the open door reset his mind into the night.

Outside the January chill hugged him from behind like an awkward friend not spoken to in awhile, lingering past comfort. The bags his hands gripped weighed the arms into a seesaw as he walked to relieve the trash. Back from her break, Fritz began to straighten the chairs while George trotted back with hands in his pockets. The loud dingDING preceded a rush of artificial wind from the doorway, pushing a napkin from the wall towards the duffel bag. Fritz slipped from behind the register.

“Is that your duffel bag?” she asked with a point of her chin.

“My what?”

“Your duffel bag. That one, on the table.” She pointed with her finger. “The only duffel bag in the building.”

“What? That’s Nigel’s.”

“Who’s Nigel?”

“The guy that just ordered the espresso while you were on break.”

“I didn’t hear the bell while on break?”

“Maybe it’s broken. Where’d he go?”

“Where’d who go?”

“Nigel, Fritz, Nigel. The customer.”

“I haven’t seen anyone. So this isn’t your bag?”

“Nope.”

“Then who’s is it?”

“Nigel’s, Fritz. It belongs to Nigel. He’s probably in the bathroom.”

George stabilized himself with a hand atop the table while picking up the napkin with a grunt. Underneath the table a soft purr emanated from the opposing side. A slow ascension from George accentuated the noise, the purr gaining in volume as George neared the bag. The serrated zipper teeth parted with a narrow sliver on the left side. Through the opening a piece of fur moved before chiming a bell.

“There’s no one in the bathroom, George.” Fritz called from the hallway leading towards the toilet.

The top mesh of the duffel bag began to rustle. A tiny paw pushed the zipper away from the side before disappearing. An orange furry face poked through the hole. Yellow green eyes stared at George before the body they resided on bounced out of the bag. A tinkle bell binged like unpredictable jazz as the cat purred back and forth in feline pace across the table. A twill string held the bell and a glimmering golden tag, the faintest cymbals crashing to sound its presence. He edged near to catch the cat while it drank from the milk saucer on the table.

“Why are you crouched like that, George?”

George motioned with his hand to his lips but Fritz didn’t respect nonverbal cues.

She gasped like all women with animal shaped holes in their hearts do when they see small creatures. “Where’d this cat come from?” she said in a rush towards it.

The cat, in its mistrust of humanity, leapt from the table and shot towards the door. The milk saucer crashed to the floor when George pounced on the cat. Twisting from his grip the cat shot through a tiny hole from the wind-assisted door opening. The captive tabby cat skirted out into the night, red body burning against the cool blue cement away from the shop.

“That was somethin’. A cat. No one will believe me when I post this online.” Fritz sat laughing. “How’d you say it got in here?”

George stared at his hands, the simple twine collar ripped easy of the cat. Bing – bing. The bell and tag clanged together in his hand. In the fluorescent bulbs that lit the night shift, a lone word flickered in contrast against the small gold plate: NIGEL.

“Didn’t it look like the cat had a mustache?” Fritz said before shutting the night out with a firm pull on the door.


Thank you for reading this story. As a former barista, I love writing from this perspective. Here's another story from it.

February 9, 2016 - No Comments!

Girl on the Green Moto

Illustration by Geoff Gouveia

Illustration by Geoff Gouveia

“I saw her again.” The words leave the man's lips before they line a glass. A swig of the dark chilled liquid is his shelter against the humidity before he continues his story.

“She was darting in and out of traffic this time. Same girl, I swear. She’s got black hair and a dark helmet with a visor that hides her face. I know it’s the same girl because the moto is green.” His eyes mirror the oscillation of the fan from right to left, pause, left to right, pause.

“Aw stop talking about the girl on the green moto, George.” Two eyes roll as they look at hands about to pop the top of a Coke can. The swish fuzz oozes and the man slurps the top overspill into his mouth. “There’s about eight million girls in this town and you keep talking about her. You haven’t even seen her face.”

“I know, Ryan, I know. I haven’t. I don’t know what she looks like. But she keeps popping up in the most random of times, the green moto flashing by and I know it’s her.”

Ryan shifts his weight forward, the top part of his chest squaring up in a physical challenge to George’s statement. “How do you know for certain it’s the same girl? Every girl on a moto in Cambodia looks the exact same.”

“That’s the thing, man. I don’t think she’s Cambodian.”

“Does she teach English like us? Heck, how would you know? You haven’t even seen her face.”

George gazes past the fan into the lily pond sitting in the lobby of the hotel restaurant they ate at on nights like these. Nights that forgot to take on the characteristics of night. Nights like these back home cooled but here on the other side of the world nights don’t cool, not even in winter. The days stick around literally and the heat makes its home amongst the darkness. Nights like these made George think of home and whenever he thought of home, the girl on the green moto wasn’t far behind.

“You know who else rode a green scooter, George?”

“I knew you'd say that. It's not like that.”

“Don’t tell me this is about her.”

“You think this is about Violet? How is this about her?”

“You don’t think it is some kind of coincidence that you keep seeing a girl riding around on a green moto- in a city, I might add, across the world from the place that you and Violet were about to make home?”

“Why are you bringing that up? What’s the matter with you? She’s gone, man. What can I do about it?”

George couldn’t do anything about death and whenever he thought about it, he was quick to latch onto something, anything else. It was the same thing he thought about before it gave him the false courage to teach English abroad. Ryan’s going…why can’t I?

And here they were. Drinking cokes in a Cambodian café as refuge in the hot humid night. The change in culture gave George the chance to rewire his brain and to adopt the new surrounding as his home. It could never really become his home because home could only occur when you stopped running. The dark event that started this journey in the first place wouldn't allow him to catch his breath here.

George vacuums Coke through his teeth in a loud slush while Ryan stared through him at the street, the cars passing by on the night road.

“It’s not Violet. It’s just a girl I see riding around on a green moto. That's it. The first time I saw her was in slow motion. The taxi stopped and a hand hit the glass on my side. I stared straight into her visor. Her hair flowed out the back and the sides, jet-black and long. She wore a striped shirt and capris with sandals. And then I noticed it – the green moto. Green like the lily pads. Greener than these right here.” George points at the lily pad pond, a serene square cut into the cafe floor. Purple blooming pods poked through the circle disks, organic floating cd-roms of old.

“Green like lilies. The bike didn’t look dusty – you know how all the motos here look dusty? Caked on with years of use... the motos all look the same, a muted red brown? Hers was green. Straight off the lot and ridden with precision. Pushing with her feet through traffic, she rode off after a short burst and into the city. We never caught up with her that day. Next time I saw her was over by the pharmacy. It was after that sighting that I called her Lily. I saw her at the cafe downtown, outside of the university and over by our apartment. She follows me everywhere.”

George swirls the ice in his cup and then holds it against his temple while watching Ryan pick a stray grain of rice from the plate.

“Sounds a lot like how you met Violet.”

George's eyes met Ryan’s before they stare into the floating lily bed.

“I don’t know what to tell you. I keep seeing her everywhere.”

Ryan knew this might be a possibility. The months after the accident George had claimed to see other girls in a similar fashion. Always in a vehicle or in motion – the faces never seen and the body types always the same: Violet’s. When George brought these girls up, Ryan didn’t squash his hopes. He thought it might be part of the grieving process for George. Having never lost someone Ryan had the distinct disadvantage of consoling without the vital experience needed to be effective. After months of being in country, Ryan thought tonight it should end like all fantasies end, with truth.

“I’m not doubting you. Heck. Yes, yes I am doubting you. Lily? She’s not out there. You want to see Violet. It’s time to move on, George. Time to move on. I thought the change in scenery would do you some good. Clear your head and help you process.”

“I’m doing better. I’m better, I swear. I am.” A frog hops into the lily pond, sinking beneath the murky green water. The ripples sway even the furthest of lilies, the browning outer ones too close to the walking path. Only the middle of the pond had a cluster of the greenest lilies. The frog made its way there, as if the green were a natural magnet to the most vibrant life source. Atop the lily shone a light purple bloom, the flower popping in an explosion of the color…

“Violet. I guess I just miss her.”

“She was a great girl for you man. I’m sorry that happened. I hate that it happened the way it did. But we can’t change anything. I understand if you’re still mourning. I just don’t think the sightings are healthy anymore. We can’t bring her back.”

The clinking in the ice made its way back to the woman attending the tables. She came to the edge and asked if the men needed a refill on their beverages. Ryan looks at George's nod and then catches on a figure passing behind George's head. It stops to wait for the light. Past George’s ear and through the opening of the café door, sandaled feet rest against the street. They hold up a lily-green moto.

The sandals putter one foot in front of the other, duck waddling the moto towards the front of the pack. Slender ankles led into navy capris and a striped shirt underneath a light sweater covering most of her arms. Long black hair fell onto her back and the dark gray helmet shields her both from the street and from Ryan’s view. Simultaneous mini-roars and the pack of small-motorized animals leapt off, the lily-green moto in hot pursuit.

“Ryan? Do you want something?” George turns to the waitress. “Just get him another Coke, I’m sorry.” The waitress thanks him and walks back to the kitchen. George’s left eyebrow sank while his right one rose. “What’s the matter with you?” Matching Ryan’s gaze, George turned to see the street whizzing with cars.

“I’m sorry- I thought I saw someone,” Ryan says in a quiet voice.

“Aw come on, man. That’s poor timing. Now you’re just making fun of me.”

Ryan's head bobbles with mouth agape. The waitress returned with fresh Cokes, the ice dancing near the rim. Both men thank the waitress and sip against the cool glasses.

George distanced his mouth from the glass, “You’re right.” He tops the statement with a tilt of the beverage.

Ryan lurches forward, pulling away the drink from his lips.

“About what?”

“The girl on the green moto. She probably doesn’t exist.”

Ryan eyes the street. "No man, I'm sorry-"

“No. You’re right.” George turns to the outside and then back to the table before signaling for the check. His left hand rises with clenched fist, only the thumb escaping the cluster of fingers as he jerks it towards the street over his shoulder.

“She’s not out there, you know?"

The waitress brought the ticket and gave them change at the table. As he scoops the coins into his pocket, a 100-riel coin rolled down Ryan’s pant leg and into the lily pond near the table. The coin slides dagger like into the murky green water but not before setting off a ripple into the pond.  The men leave the restaurant as the purple buds pulse amongst the lily pads with the fresh burst of energy into the previously peaceful pool.


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